I Am The Master Of My Destiny

She was just an ex of a nigga
Who kept her from her fullest potential
Always played games with her mental
And every type of shit to make her self esteem little
But now her days are always so fly
She’s a diamond in the rough no lie
I’m rough enough to make the diamond shine
Just like a trophy I’ma hold her high ~~~ Jaheim

I was talking to my ex and he said “women always think there getting better when they leave, but once they get out there they always come running back.” I told him I wasn’t coming back because it wasn’t anything to come back to. He than advised me “it always sounds good until you get played over,” I followed up my comment to him with a “whatever.” He than referenced his best friend baby mother who can’t find a good man to save her life, laughing telling me I will be just like her.  I kindly told him that, I’m not a block bish and nobody has control over my future but God and me. The truth is, I’m going places in life, and I have goals, morals, values and standards. I’m not the chick who can’t see life beyond the street corner. It’s a whole world out there; I won’t limit myself for anybody. I also advised him if I do get played over I will keep on moving but looking back will never be a option.

The conversation with him made me realizes how people will try to play with your self-esteem and make you feel worthless. Between his laughter about me having two kids and how he knows I will easily get played; I came to the conclusion he feels I will be back begging. Sometimes men want to see you doing bad so they can feel better about themselves. They want to see you out there getting ran through and over so they can have a laugh. I don’t know how many times I’ve heard them talk about his friend’s ex and how he knew she wasn’t gonna be shyt. Somehow my ex has it in his mind I will travel the same path, but the devil is a lie.  As long as I have God by my side and faith within myself what others speak of me wont stop my show. I’m a strong believer in speaking on what I want and praying for what I need. I know it’s not easy out there, I’d never planned on being single but it’s my reality now.  I just wanted to share this post because I know it’s some women who have these type of people in there life, don’t let anyone tell you what your future holds. You are the master of your own destiny, keep God close, do some self reflecting on your bad choices and figure out how you can stop making them. Some people just live to see you doing bad and being miserable. Lord knows I have my days where I’m down and feel bad about my time lost but after that talk I’m done with that as well. I won’t let anybody feel like I can’t do better without them.  I am a survivor, I will prevail, I will do bigger and better things, I will be great, and I will speak everything I want into existent.  The bible says whosoever has faith as small as a mustard seed he can move a mountain. My faith within myself is all I need to know that I will be great. Please believe in yourself and know your worthy to have great things in your life.

I ended that conversation with,

“Well I’ll tell you this, you where with me 12 years, you didn’t leave me I left you. You can pop all that noise but you still tryna get back with me, you hating so hard cuz you know Shorty got gifts, I ain’t worried about what you talking about catch me at the top spot homey.”

So what you think of that?

Nichelle Walker


What You Think of That - Jaheim

I love this song, it’s real what one person feels is wrong the next person might feel it’s all so right; believe in yourself.