I Just Wanna Be Happy

Lawd The drama, the sleepless nights, massive headaches, unneeded stress, and weight gain or loss. Staying up late nights crying, feeling hurt and alone. Damn why can’t I be happy? You tell yourself when things are going wrong in your life. You sit and reevaluate your situation over and over again to find answers.

The answer is right in front of you, but you blind yourself from recognizing the truth. The only person who is keeping you unhappy is you.

The truth is, you’re the only person in this whole wide world that controls your happiness. Instead of being in control of you, you’ve let others fool you into believing that they have some control over your state of mind. They can come in and abuse and manipulate you whenever they see fit and still keep their peace of mind. Trying to be nice to folks and keep them happy has taken a toll over your state of being and your slowly falling and fading away. What should I do? You’ve asked yourself over and over again trying to figure things out. You see yourself falling off from your life, your goals and everything you want out of life seems so far away now. How, when, where to start, can it be done?

Facing the truth is the first step and realizing that everything starts with you! How can you love somebody else when you don’t even love yourself enough to know when it’s time to let go of things, people or the stuff that is making you unhappy?

Cleaning out your life, ridding it of people who are abusers, we often think abusers are people who hit you. But abuse comes in all kinds of forms, abusers are manipulators, people who make you feel bad about right choices in your life. It doesn’t matter if it’s a boyfriend, girlfriend, mother, father, sister, friend whoever it is, get rid of them. You have to shut out people who are taking you for granted, abusing your time and your kindness, folks who brings down your spirit. It’s like taking a phone call from a person and they instantly make your day go downhill. You can’t live with people who seek to steal your joy away from you they are no good in your inner circle. I know we try to be loyal to our family and friends, however we have to understand that when we are trying to live a happier life those types of people have to be cut off.

Last night I looked in the mirror and realized that I was talking about me in the above passage and that I needed to start cleaning out my life. It’s time for me to be happy and I can’t lean on anyone else to make sure I get there. Some folks have to be shut off and washed out my life in order for me to be sane. I realize now that I can’t say I want to be happy without doing what I need to do to get there…

Peace Nichelle


Be Happy – Mary J Blige Music Code